I see you, dear one

I see you dear one
hiding in the shadows

weary of yourself
and the penance you must pay
for being alive, for breathing air
for surviving another day.
by now, you’ve seen that
maybe it isn’t true
maybe you can relax, be
receive the light
without having to pay anyone back
maybe you can follow your own desire.
but, alas, you are stuck
in the old way
in the dark way no one ever talks about
that really you are unworthy, desecrated, forlorn
you should be grateful that they let you live
this long
this is what you were fed from day one
and it’s hard to let it go because
it’s what you’ve built your survival on.
if it’s gone, then what?
what will you live on? what will sustain?

don't you see
that you are literally made of love, sweet one?
you exude it, live it, are it.
you cannot be made unworthy of it.
you were born of love
and there is never been anything you’ve done
or could ever do that will make you
not it.
there is no inherent evil inside you that
makes you unworthy.
let it go, dear one.

let yourself cuddle up in
your own sweet embrace
warm in love
with yourself.
pamper yourself with exactly what you need
in this moment
rest, deep nourishment, movement, breath
rest in your own splendor.

and know that you are not alone
take a breath, feel the earth below you,
solid and firm
feel the sky above,
both holding you
know the support of the Universe all around
and within.
in time, the right ones will show up for you
as you continue to shine your light in the world.
suddenly, you will find them walking
alongside you on your path
and you will wonder where they came from.

the truth is they were here all along
waiting for you to turn your light on
so that they could find you
and you could finally see them.
—ruchi jain